Motherhood is a ministry, though I am just coming to realize it this year.
I became a mother 4.5 years ago and I have been on a steep learning curve since that Christmas Day that my daughter came into the world. God has been patient with me, sowing seeds in my heart for something more. There have been many ups and downs as I learn what it means to be a mother, and I’m sure that there are more to come, but the pieces of the puzzle are slowly starting to come together.
“Children are a gift from the Lord; they are a reward from him.” – Psalm 127:3 (NLT)
There have been moments where I have felt like my children were hindering me from being able to serve God in ways that I would like, jetting off on mission trips or simply being able to freely volunteer to serve. There have been moments where I have been jealous of my husband’s position as a Youth Minister, being able to have his job be to love and serve God and love and serve people, while I am at home changing diapers and listening to screeching children, feeling far from God’s presence.
Just in this past year, I am truly starting to see what a ministry motherhood truly is. I have written about this mission before, so I’m sorry if this sounds repetitive. I am so humbled and shocked that I could not see it before, but God’s presence is here in my home. God’s presence is here during the diaper changes. God’s presence is here in the problem solving. God’s presence is here in the cuddles. My children have been entrusted to me as a flock of sheep and every thing that I do has an impact on them. I have the high honour of being called mother and I have the opportunity to serve my children as the Lord every waking, and sometimes sleeping, moment of the day. God is here in my simple, day-to-day life of raising children. Children are a blessing, not a burden. They do not keep me from serving God, they enable me to do it all day long. I know it sounds cliche, but my children teach me. I have learned more about myself and my sinfulness than I ever would have if I had not become a mother. This is a blessing; it brings me closer to God. Motherhood has brought me to my knees in prayer more than any other ministry I have been a part of. I need his strength to have what it takes to be a mother.
The introduction to Sally Clarkson’s book “The Ministry of Motherhood” spoke to my mother heart. I felt so connected to Sally as she shared her testimony and how she came to be intentional about motherhood. I loved when she said on page 6, “I was learning that God created very normal people like me to have a ministry — a spiritual impact in the lives of other people” and then on page 7, “My desire to minister was not based on any special background or degree; I was just a normal person who happened to love God deeply.” What a relief!
“Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.” – Matthew 28:19-20
How could I not see before that this verse can be applied also in my home? I think perhaps I have been afraid of applying this verse to my children, because to be quite honest, I have no idea how to make disciples of my children. I did not grow up in a Christian home, so I feel as though I am a pioneer in my family as a Christian mom. God is showing me that I don’t need to have any special background or degree, I just have to love Him. And surely he is with me always, to the very end of the age. I can already see his faithfulness, he has been teaching me, guiding me, leading me to this point and forward in my motherhood journey. I can not do it alone. I can only do it with Him, through Him, by Him.
This post has been linked up at GoodMorningGirls.org as part of Women in the Word Wednesdays.
If you haven’t already, check out Sally’s video that goes along with the introduction to the book!